Learning to trust God can be very difficult. I have been working on my relationship with Him for many years, and it seems like I often end up at square one when it comes to trust. I will be doing great letting God have control in difficult and easy situations alike; then, out of nowhere, comes something I wasn't expecting and WHAM! I fail to courageously face my problem knowing that God will take care of me.
This happened yesterday. As you know, I attend New Geneva Theological Seminary. Last night, we had a big banquet to raise money and get prayer support for the seminary. I was asked to create a picture slideshow for the dinner, which is no big deal. In fact, I've done a lot of slideshows and really enjoy designing them, adding music, etc. This time, however, I was really stressed out working on it. It took me ten hours to make it, which I could have been using to do homework, grade tests, etc.
Not only did I stress out making the show, but when it came time to play it at the banquet, I was really nervous. I had poured my week into it, and it had to work in front of my professors, fellow students, and a lot of big donors. I should have trusted God and not even worried about it. Instead, I relied on my own strength to try and get through it. In the end, nothing went wrong and I received many compliments on the show.
Instead of feeling glad, I went home feeling like I should have just trusted God. I didn't enjoyt he banquet like I should have because of my fear. And so, as I move onward, I need to keep praying that I won't worry about anything, but trust in God who is much bigger than any of my problems could ever be!
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